Overjoyed!

Well, maybe not overjoyed, cause I don't think I like that word. Overjoyed would meen that you have too much joy to handle. I'm not sure that is even possible, but that is a discussion for a later date. I am very excited and happy.

We will be welcoming an addition into our family in a little under 7 months. We knew for almost two weeks before we let everyone know. Of course we had told those who needed to know, our Divisional Commander, my family, Tammy's family, and a few very close friends.

It almost feel like a burden has been lifted from my shoulders now that we have announced it. I don't feel like I have to sneak around and try not to be too happy. We had specific reasons for announcing it as we did. We kept it to those who needed to know first because we wanted to see an ultra-sound first to make sure everything was progressing normally. Once we had that, we wanted to make sure we announced it to our congregation on a Sunday. That way no one would feel like they were being slighted or left out. Then, by the time I was in on Monday, it has spread throughout all of our employees.

Obviously it is too soon to know the sex of the baby, but we are tossing names back and forth. Both boy and girls names. We have both decided that names will be a little easier to determine once we know the sex and have prayed about it more.

And as excited and happy as I am, I can't lie and say I am not at least slightly apprehensive. Not that I don't want the child, that's not it at all. I'm just somewhat concerned about the normal provider things that dads get concerned about. Another child means more expenses. Another child means more of my time. Another child means more of my wifes time. Another child means I need to start taking better care of myself (i.e. health and excersize).

And it isn't that The Salvation Army doesn't take good care of us, because they do. And it isn't that I can't make time for another child. And it isn't that I can't spare some of my wife and my time for the baby. And it isn't that I can't take better care of myself. Its that I'm concerned about being able to change my pattern. Cause, well, I kinda like my pattern. When it comes to myself, change is not really a strong point of mine.

Now, I'm sure as we get closer to the date, I will be able to adjust and it will come naturally. But, looking at it from this side it seems like such a big change. It almost seems unnatural. I do realize that I need to start the changes now so they are part of my pattern when the baby arrives. Because starting a new pattern after the baby arrives is going to be about impossible.

I am very excited about the new baby. Baby, I can't wait to meet you. I can't wait until we can give you a name. I can't wait to hold you for the first time. I am excited to see you develop, to learn and to see your personality take shape. I will try to enjoy every moment with you.

YAY! We're havin' a baby!!